(Im)Patience, Little Sister

I am not patient. I never have been patient. If something i do does not provide instant gratification i get very angry. I dont know why either. My patience remains paper thin and being in school does not help. it never fails that everyday i run into a situation or person that just gets my craw. i have no desire to try to be patient because all of my efforts at attempting to be patient result in me exploding on the person that i am trying to be patient with.

Funny story:

I was in a study group the other day and a classmates child was coming in and out of our room with his foolishness and interrupting us. I was at the end of my rope! he decided to leave the room but unbeknownst to me he was only hiding behind the door. I got up to leave the room and when i opened the door that little crapbag popped out at me! in my "terror" i grabbed him by the arm and, in a relatively calm voice, told him to go sit down and stay seated because he almost got knocked out because i didnt know who or what it was that popped out at me.

Now... that situation only helped me recognize that #1 i hate kids hahah and #2 im severely impatient because that situation shouldnt have caused me to react in such a way.

There really is no point to this blog except for me to publicly recognize i am not patient and that i need therapy hahha.

Good day